December 2009
41 posts
failure
to eat a normal amount of food. this morning i had pancakes. then i consumed Starbucks around 2. ate dinner at 8:45. dinner killed me. Cheesecake factory. ate a whole thin crust pizza and a slice of cheesecake.
Carrie’s birthday was today. I was talking to Nathan about it today & realized just how secure I am in knowing that she is absolutely one of the best friends i have ever had....
piercing #7
complete! quite possibly the least painful yett.
breakfast was wonderful. PJ only had 2 stars. That’s why I gave her $1 for a tip.
i do wish people were not so angry. makes me sad.
i wrote in sharpie on a wooden stick at Starbucks.
i am anxious.
Avatar
was an epically wonderful movie.
i was fully prepared to spend the night alone at Starbucks when Nathan showed up with 3 friends and invited me to go see it with them. Its always comforting to be wanted. I feel as though recently a lot of my friends have failed in this area, though it has been nice to realize that those I thought cared, really don’t show it. With the exception of a few;...
yesterday was great
watched Inglorious Basterds and fed people’s McDonalds craving.
came home & play Sims 3 until 3:45AM on my iPod touch.
dreamt of getting smashed with Nathan & shooting at least 10 people. After I killed them I went into hiding. Thank you Inglorious Basterds for that dream.
twitter explosion ‘09 happened today. i kind of enjoyed it though because everybody expressed their feelings. break has turned out to be everything and nothing i thought it would be.
church is a joke. all the time. i like it.
i cannot wait to watch Inglorious Basterds tonight.
christmas completion
the day is now over.
i had my parents donate money to a sexually exploited girl for one of my presents. i am so excited that part of my consumerism was replaced with something useful. something i will always care about.
the day was full of opening presents, sitting by the fire, seeing Alvin and the Chipmunks, playing Wii and Nintendo DS games, & eating homemade soups.
this day was just...
GPA
a simple number.
i just cried for 20 minutes about it. thanks to getting a C+ in Psych. last year, my GPA is disproportional. To keep my scholarship I need a 3.4 at the end of the year. I have a 3.28, even though this semester my GPA was 3.45
These science classes are great, I love learning everything I need to know. But they are legitimately THE hardest freshmen classes at IWU & without...
“tonight, i DO believe in Santa.”
beautiful
night tonight.
began by buying a variety puzzle book at Barnes and Noble. Jacob & Nathan showed up & we spent over an hour looking through different books.
ventured to Starbucks. drank coffee. talked to friends. it was so nice for Nathan to be able to see the group again and not have it be awkward at all. He never completely fit with our group, but he certainly got along well with the...
oh christmas
i am so excited for its arrival, though i wish i’d remember that although i didn’t procrastinate on deciding what to buy, i did procrastinate on purchasing and therefore at this point i am fighting the christmas rush.
i am enjoying the business of the holidays though.
i received my grades today and am content with them because they are relatively great for taking such difficult to...
entertainment
is relative to the situation. for some reason last night the group found it entertaining to create bathroom humor meanwhile the Gavit family members and their guests were easily within an earshot of what was going on. something about last night reverted us to childlike behavior but it was sorta nice.
anticipation is building. everything WILL be okay.
“Q: My bf is a little chubby. But i wanna have sex with him, but i kinda get...”
– A ChaCha customer
enjoyment.
today i enjoyed waking up.
i enjoyed shopping with my mother and brother.
i enjoyed sitting at starbucks, buy feathers, and going to the library.
i enjoyed talking with carrie very much
i enjoyed going out to dinner
i enjoyed the somewhat strange christmas party
i enjoy reading, playing Cafe World, and making money on ChaCha.
i enjoy Christmas break.
my sister.
wrote the word “bitch” in a note during school today.
her teacher caught her writing it and sent her down to the principal. now she has lunch detention for 2 days. i find this comforting and humorous because although i was went to the principal a lot as a kid, i never was stupid about how i got caught… well…
apparently yesterday she threw her retainer away at school....
things i dream that i wish were real
Uno: To read about Alice and Wonderland
Two: To eat cupcakes and enjoy a party where old people come and talk about their lives
Three: To wake up and find the boy i love is at my door
Four: To see Wicked once again
Five: To wear a beautiful dress that fits perfectly
we were infinite.
my first semester of college is complete. it wasn’t as hard as i thought it was going to be. but a lot harder than i thought it was going to be. if that makes sense.
one of my fish died today while i was taking a final. i find this to be ironic because initially the computer said i failed the final. evidently my professor hand-graded the exam and i did not fail. my other fish had a rough...
i know it's cliche
but all i want for Christmas is you.
Asian Joke.
For some reason this made my night.
Person 1: What happened to the Asian who had a full erection and ran into a wall?
Person 2: I don't know, what happened?
Person 1: He broke his nose
“I AM ChaCha.”
semester 1 complete
well almost.
i aced my Anatomy test today.
3 exams left for monday.
time for a relaxing weekend of trying to understand everything i learned this semester.
day thus far take two.
i got a 75% correction: 80%
lowest grade yet.
but much better than i planned on doing. that test was harder than the final is going to be.
eating pizza. relaxing. earning some money online.
this will be my night.
my week of hell is over.
day thus far.
has been surprisingly excellent.
English Composition presentation (spent 10 minutes preparing for) : B
Anatomy Lab Practical (spent 1.5 hours preparing for) : A
received a large package in the mail from my mother. she sent me the greatest foods.
monday night i get done with my last exam at 6. then driving home to HTC to see a live documentary kind of thing about doctors! i know...
breakdown
i was in the middle of studying. writing papers. studying.
had a moment of anger towards the break-up.
expressed my anger to Nathan.
overreacted. apologized.
returned to homework.
sigh.
like carrie said, after tomorrow the semester is over.
that’s what I keep telling myself.
this is my life.
I got the concept and came to the conclusion That the top floor was just an illusion To the fact that I got this break in my back That I can’t get out; I can’t figure out how You appeared right in front of me Before you marched down South; the university Is where you spend your daylight We’re both just waiting for this Friday night Although the distance is daring, we both know...
“Documentary to watch: Devil’s Playground.”
given up.
on extra credit. surely it wouldn’t have amounted to much. especially given the fact that i still have 60% of the work left to do for it. therefore the portfolio would’ve sucked. and the extra credit would hardly make up for that.
ohh irony. the things that are due this week stress me out more than the final exams I have monday.
words cannot describe.
how sick i’ve been
i have very faint memories of last night but no idea how it all really happened. it all comes down to 5+ shots in less than 30 minutes on an empty stomach. i have the greatest friends. they took care of me & my mess. i wish i’d been aware that i was throwing up so i couldve avoided such a mess but i have to be honest; i was passed out when it happened. never...
time for a much needed
night.
tired of all this school shit.
i took out my earring and put claire’s earrings. let’s hope they won’t get too infected before I go to Hot Topic tomorrow to get some new earrings.
tonight i have to make the school think i am signing in for the night and then sneak out of the dorm since im on early curfew. early curfew means i have to be in by 10. instead i am sneaking...
tired.
of trying to be productive.
of trying to be a good friend to those who don’t reciprocate it.
of taking exams.
of spending countless hours in my dorm room.
i consumed 300 calories today.
i am not the least bit hungry.
i will go finish my book now.
cannot wait for break.
caffeine hangover.
this is not fun. i am still jittery and restless from all the caffeine. I consumed 700mg in less than 1.5 hours. I found the symptoms for caffeine intoxication. I highlighted the ones i had/have. Honest to God I felt very intoxicated last night. lesson learned: be careful about caffeine intake.
Caffeine-Induced Organic Mental Disorder 305.90 Caffeine Intoxication
Recent consumption of caffeine,...
caffeine is for lovers.
did i mention my strange obsession with pick-up lines lately? it’s not that i would like to use them more often; i just think they are cute in a weird way even when they are extremely dirty.
i drank my coffee 5 hours ago. i am still wired. we will see how long this lasts. hopefully i’ll be able to sleep in an hour or two. i honest to God feel partially intoxicated. i feel dizzy and...
i am a fan.
of caffeine.
i am the most shaky i have every been in my entire life right now. i can’t stop talking. thinking. typing. breathing.
i have an excess of thoughts. and best of all i am learning about the human body! i might die though. i dont know if it’s a good idea for me to drive right now. gahhh. seriously 700mg of caffeine cannot be good for you. i have been going crazy for the...
my toes.
are cold.
i have accomplished practically nothing today. i am skipping dinner in the hopes that it will increase my productivity. this is probably not the case.
i need to remember to call work tomorrow and set up shifts even though this will probably piss them off because they already made the schedule.
it’s looking like i will only be gone one day this christmas break. usually i am gone...
Head is pounding.
Too much to do.
My first final is tomorrow.
I must stay awake for a few more hours to accomplish something before the day is over.
I am now officially a Special Agent.
I love waking up to text messages for me.
“i walked into my 7:50 class this morning and quietly sat down. Just minutes...”
“This is the moment that you know, that you told her that you loved her, but you...”
– Death Cab for Cutie