January 2010
28 posts
completed
assignments through the end of next week.
praying this week doesn’t give me too much work for the weekend.
anxious to be home and feel like a normal teenager again and not some girl who takes naps and studies all the time.
my roommate is the best. she just cleaned the whole dorm for us.
i cannot wait for the weekend.
off they go
two to michigan, two to ohio, and one to chicago.
each one seeking a weekend at home
leaving only two to spend the weekend alone
making pancakes in coffee mugs
and playing N64
completing assignments
and sleeping in room 202-4.
this is my weekend.
wonderful
wonderful wonderful concert. such carefree beautiful music. this was not just something to check off a list, no doubt.
i failed to study effectively but by the grace of God i was able to understand everything on the exam & received at least a B i’m sure!
i won’t be home for 2 weeks. it’ll be nice to stay in one environment for that amount of time. i may come home one night...
youth in revolt
was a strangely stunning movie.
can i please try to explain something great that just happened to me?
my mother always let me experience things on my own. she didn’t teach me how to put a bra on ‘right’ ( i ALWAYS pull it over my head instead of unhooking it ).she didn’t show me where she kept things i might need in the future. she didn’t prohibit me hanging out...
birthdays
are beautiful, especially when they aren’t your own.
scooter’s aren’t meant for ice
somehow i have a tendency to form hydrogen bonds rather than covalent bonds when all i really want is the beauty of a covalent bond.
it might be a few years away, but i’d really love our dreams to come true and to move to colorado and get an apartment and go to school there.
Grey’s...
“the temperature seldom rises, past that wintry thermometer line. now i’m...”
– heyhihello!
just live.
i’ve been processing a thought this week. its having a hard time resolving itself though I suppose i’ll try to catch the point of it. America has adopted this view since the 60’s but it has progressively grown stronger in the past 10 years. The idea? This is America, I can do what I want and shouldn’t be judged for it, I just want to live, etc. It’s easy for us to all...
there is beauty
in the sharing of a tumblr moment. i still laugh a little when i think of how excited Carrie and I were to talk about dreams and the things we know about them, only to realize we had read the same tumblr post recently. its things like that, that almost seem to define a friendship. those moments when you both realize something at the same time or experience the same emotion. you are able to connect...
i want
to be honestly blunt (?) for those who read this & hopefully the message will get passed along :)
i am doing okay in the realm of relationships or lack there of. i know i come off as somewhat of a whore who takes her desires too seriously to the point that she’ll do anything to get what she wants.. ie. talking to nathan a lot.
the beginning of last semester was a struggle as you all...
day's agenda
sleep 5:30am-12pm
CPR training 1pm-4:30pm
pizza & movie 5-7 pm
ChaCha 7-10 pm
Philosophy & Anatomy till I fall asleep.
i am
struggling this week.
i have to be honest… with Taylor being home again I am now theoretically alone. I can’t be home all the time to be included. I have no idea what’s going on in half my friends lives, therefore I really don’t fit in. Unlike Pat I do not have someone at home connecting me to the world I wish I was a part of. The more I come home the more I am included,...
suddenly
feeling a bit of homesickness. i’m loving it here more than i ever have, yet there isn’t the same joy i feel at home with people at home. its so sad to watch the world move on without you. especially knowing i had a choice 2 years ago whether i wanted to be in college this year or not. i know i made the right decision. its just somewhat lonely knowing that i could’ve been part of...
136 minutes 45 seconds
the time spent talking on the phone into the night with my favorite boy in the world. he called me for the second night this week, just to see how my week is going. i think its the nicest thing in the world at the moment. enough to get me through the next few days of readjusting to countless assignments and topics to memorize.
carrie, you are correct. very correct. i laughed when i read your...
I. pull clothes out of dryer
II. empty fish tank, dry, & prepare for gecko
III. clean out trunk
IV. load food boxes into trunk
V. pack suitcases of clothes and such
VI. deposit checks at bank
VII. eat Panera
VIII. drive to school
since when
has it been popular to be selfish? i finally figured out the root to every situation or problem; selfishness. the world tells us to do what makes us happy. to find and fulfill our own destinies and such. what they forget to mention is that in the process you leave people behind and sometimes even hurt them.
this comes at me and i see it hit others at all different angles. the friend gets a new...
to do list
I. finish reorganizing my bookshelf
II. get half way through Catcher in the Rye
III. attend chiropractor appointment
IV. make list of supplies needed before heading back to college
V. watch newest episode of Secret Life of the American Teenager
VI. accumulate 1000 points on ChaCha by saturday
shadow
when you step into an operating room you have to remember that its nothing like you envisioned it’d be. there is a normal amount of lighting in the room, almost brighter than my own bedroom. the room is bare with the exception of a machine and a small black operating table. at least until everyone starts their day. they wheel carts in with sterile packs of different types of supplies for...
reflection is bitter
& hardly sweet.
i spent a pointless amount of time today engaging in an activity that i will spare the details of. what it simply came down to is my need to fulfill my needs. i am strange. i tend to be strange. i don’t know if people always realize this, but i know it is true.
taylor is my friend. she talked everything out with me today and was as effective as my counselor. hopefully...
